She's Not Mine

Ok. Last post about Savannah's eczema for a while.

I had to share what I've learned. I go through these phases with Savannah's skin. I do what I can for a while, and then sometimes I go kinda postal...like I did here. Then, sometimes, I'm reminded of what the Bible says in Psalm 127:3. Children are an heritage of the Lord. I've always known that verse, but not until recently did I look up the word Heritage. It means property. Our children are the Lord's property. They aren't ours....we just have them on loan.

As I said the other day, I was scouring the Internet looking for something to help. When Brian got up, I told him I had to go to Wal-Mart to get some stuff for Savannah's skin. So, I went and got new soap, new lotion, Vitamin E oil, and a humidity gauge. Brian said, "Jenn, you get so crazy!" To which I (not so nicely) replied, "I have to do SOMETHING! Look at her!"


So, the other day, I was praying after having my quiet time, and as usual, I was crying, and begging the Lord to heal my Savannah. I was saying, "Lord, I've tried this and this and this and this, and it's not working!!" It's almost like I had a still small voice (not audible....I'm not going all crazy on you) say, "STOP, let ME heal her."


WHAT?? Stop?? I can't stop. I can't stop the special soap, and the 3 different lotions, and the steroids, and the vitamin E, and the itchy medicine, and the Singulair, and the fish oil. The thought of that terrified me.


Then, I remembered. She isn't mine. She is HIS child. His daughter. What makes me think that I love her more than He does? I was reminded of this through a VERY good friend's post. She is His, and He CAN heal her.


Did I stop everything? No. I feel like the Lord gave me permission to use the necessary stuff on her. But, I stopped going "all crazy" as Brian put it. I went back to the basics. Her lotion that I know has worked in the past, and her medicine that makes her more comfortable. Is she healed? No, I don't think so. But, she hasn't worn gloves in 2 days, and she is in regular clothes today....and we aren't even going anywhere!