Psalm 61:2

The title of this post is the same verse that is under the title of my blog. I lived this verse last Saturday. I hesitate to write this post, because I don't want people to think I am "Woe is Me" because I'm not. But, I know there are mother's out there that have these same feelings, thoughts, and concerns, so I'm hoping to be an encouragement to them.

Are you a Mother? If your child is hurting, what would you do to help them? I know there are occasions that you tell them to "walk it off" (or, my favorite, "suck it up, princess"), but I mean if they are really hurting. I guess the better question is, What wouldn't you do to help them?? Would you buy special foods for the child that can't eat what "normal" children eat? Would you pay $50 for a 4 oz tub of lotion...oh wait, that's me. Would you drive 115 miles to see a Dr that may or may not give you answers? Oh wait, that's me again. My point here is, that there is not a mother out there that wouldn't do anything to help her child to stop suffering.

I don't research eczema online much. One reason is because there isn't much new that I can learn (if one more website tells me to "moisturize moisturize moisturize" I'll scream!!!) But, if I go several months between research sprees, I occasionally find something new. So, last Saturday, I had a few minutes (that turned into hours) and I thought, you know? I haven't looked into eczema lately....let's see what I can find. Well, I found stuff, and I lost it. Absolutely lost it. I honestly don't think I've ever cried so hard. This is the main reason I don't research eczema very often. I get upset and I have serious panic attacks. And that's exactly what happened.

It started when the first thing I read was "Babies that are breast fed don't have eczema as badly as those who weren't." Ok, that was hard to accept. I couldn't nurse Savannah, I tried, I couldn't. So, to think that I made this worse? Anyway, The real kicker came when I read that from scratching her eyelids so much, she can damage her cornea and go blind. I was in so much pain that I sobbed....and sobbed. It was that kind of cry that you have to tell yourself to breathe before you pass out. (If you're a mother, I'm sure you've cried those tears a couple times.) So, I did the only thing I knew to do at 11:06 at night. I was lead to the Rock that is higher than I. Because let me tell you, my heart was overwhelmed.

I grabbed my Bible, opened it up to Psalms and it "happened" to fall open to Psalm 55. I read it.....calmed down. Got upset again, and then decide to pray the chapter out loud. Let me share the verses that I already had underlined that God gave to me that night. If you want to read the full chapter, read it in your Bible. These are the cut down verses that helped me. This page in my Bible is now all crinkly with my tears, they are so powerful to those that suffer.

2 I mourn in my complaint
4 My heart is sore pained within me:
5 Fearfulness and trembling are come upon me, and horror hath overwhelmed me.
6 And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away, and be at rest.
16 As for me, I will call upon God; and the LORD shall save me.
17 Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.
19 God shall hear

22 Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.
23 I will trust in thee.

I have never been calmed by Scripture the way I was calmed that night. By the time I got done, I really believed that God knows best, He loves her more than I do, and He has a plan. I don't know what that plan is, and I sincerely hope it doesn't include Savannah going blind. But, HE knows, and HE knows BEST!

So, as a Mother, you think you love your children more than life itself, and you do, I'm sure. But, you know what? There is an Abba that loves your children far more than you could ever try. I love the term 'Abba'. It is used in the Bible to mean Father, when addressing God the Father in a close, personal way. When I think of it, I imagine myself as a little girl curling up in my daddy's lap and getting the comfort that only he can give. Savannah has an Abba that loves her so much that He died for her, just so she can live with Him for eternity.

You know what? The Lord did guide me to some places that told me new things to try, and you know what? Her skin looks amazing right now. Well, except her eyelids. That's my biggest challenge. You can't put lotion on eyelids. :) Here are some pictures so you can know better how to pray for my baby girl.

Look at the silly look on her face! She is still so sweet spirited even with the misery she has to be in.

This is my "Look how amazing she looks!" picture. This is a result of the things I found that night. Trust me.....it's looks good compared to what it looked like last week.